{not so hot}

I'm not feeling so hot today.  I would love nothing more than to cuddle up on my couch with hot tea and a good move.

At least that made me chuckle!

**David Update**

Nothing too exciting today.  David is out for a morning run already, breakfast, working, then the gym!  Pretty typical day aboard Camp LNK.

David, anytime you want to come home, you're welcome too.

I'm here, feeling crappy, waiting for you to come home.

I love you David.  

{temptation}

Being tempted does not normally have a positive connotation.  To be tempted is to be lured by something attractive or to be enticed into a desired state.  Life is full of temptation.  Everywhere we look, everything we see and everywhere we go.  With temptation comes pressure.  The pressure to be perfect.  If you fall to temptation, you're probably farther from being perfect.  But how do we constantly say no to temptation?  Is it possible to never give in?  I fight temptation everyday, from things that question my morals to whether or not to eat chocolate.  Temptation comes in all sizes and forms.  I wish it was easy to say no to such things, but they look so good and will make me happier (temporarily).  Why can't we be completely happy with ourselves?  Does giving into temptation have any correlation to lack of self esteem?  In my life it does.  When I'm not completely confident and happy with how I'm living my life, I tend to give into temptation.  I'm working on that issue, constantly.  I am going to strive to not give in, to live the better life.  I want to fight that evil and live for Glory.

**David Update**

He is doing well!  He sent a couple footlockers home filled with stuff he doesn't need for his last month and a half.  He is happy to be back aboard Camp LNK.  Here is a photo of David and a few of his Marines and his interpreter eating with some local Afghans.  

David, I'm really proud of you.  I read your FitRep and am really impressed.  You are a good man and a damn fine Marine.  

I'm here, watching Coast Guard Alaska, waiting for you to come home.

I love you David.  

{worry}

Some days I think that I literally worry myself sick.  It's not necessarily a recent event, but it's more present now than ever.  I don't know what my problem is, I think that it's my life is a little screwed up.  Just circumstances from every angle got me today.  Time to take a nice long relaxing snooze!

**David Update**

He is back and at the gym and working on paperwork!  He said that he has another box to send home.  it's getting so close to his arrival!  Just over a month out!!  

David, can you please come settle me?  This is getting ridiculous.  My mind is crazy!!

I'm here, in this comfy bed of ours, waiting for you to come home.

I love you David.  

{he's back}

Finally!  David is back aboard Camp LNK!  It was great to receive e-mails from him when I got out of church!

David is looking pretty BA if you ask me!

I'm here, with cold toes, waiting for you to come home!

I love you David!

{beauty}

I have spent the afternoon with some USMC wives that I love having mini-facials, mini-massages and a 3 hour coffee break!  Sometimes God likes to remind me that I am truly blessed with this crazy life.  It's so easy to get drug into the depths of depression when dealing with a deployment, or life in general.  I'm constantly reminded of my many, many blessings.  On my way home, this is the beautiful sunset that I witnessed.  

I couldn't narrow down the photos, so I posted all 5 of them! 

**David Update**

No news is good news!  I hope and pray that all is going well in the sandbox!  

David, come home!  This is crazy!  So many beautiful moments that I would LOVE to share with you!  

I'm here, in awe, waiting for you to come home.

I love you David.  

{vaccinations}

So, for my EMT-B class they require that we are up to date on 8 different vaccines.  (Eek!)  Thankfully, I only need 4 of them.  (Still a lot.)  I went to the Naval hospital on base today and had all 4 of them done!  The nurse gave me all sorts of warnings about things that might happen to me as side effects of the vaccines.  WELL, I (as David will tell you) am a bit of a hypochondriac.  Not a major one, but I'm always wondering if my airway is closing or my neck is stiffening or if I'm getting a fever.  Needless to say, I think my head is a little out of whack.

It has been raining for the past hour or so and part of me wants to go outside and just lay down.  The rain is so calming for me as is the ocean.  What if I got to lay down on the beach while it was rainy...OMGosh, so dreamy.

**David Update**

Still no word!  I'm sure that they are out there kicking some major booty!!  My prayers are with them!

David, please come home so we can watch the rain together.  (and you can rub my back and feed into my hypochondria!)  Thanks!

I'm here, with the rain, waiting for you to come home.

I love you David.  

{safety}

How I love the feeling of being safe. Not just in the protective against physical harm sense, but in a deeper way. Like I have no worries, my mind isn't going a mile a minute, I don't have to change myself or hide my feelings. I'm free to be me. I feel at home. I feel taken care of. There are a few men and very few women who can make me feel this way, but I'm thankful for all of them. I wish that every single person had someone to feel this way with, whether it be a significant other, a parent, a friend, anyone. It's such a beautiful and wonderful feeling. It brings you closer to that person. A connection stronger than most. I am thankful for these people in my life, I don't know what I would do without them.


**David Update**

I still haven't heard anything. It's been a couple days now, so I will be expecting to hear from him within the next week.

David, so many things that I need to tell you!!! First, look at this picture of a neighborhood down the way from us...haha. I miss you.

I'm here, with coffee at 11pm, waiting for you to come home.

I love you David.

{giving up}

Giving up on yourself is so easy.  It is easy to say that you don't do it or that you're not good enough.  Trust me, I've done it!  It's too easy.  I hate the days when I don't get to hear from my husband.  It's easy to give up on life and be down about myself.  I have great friends here and back home, but sometimes, it's just not enough for my brain.  I was put here in this life for a reason, I don't know what it is now and I might never know what the reason was.  I'm going to keep on keepin' on and we will see where life takes me.

I hope that you (and I) never give up on ourselves.  You are allowed to have days where you feel down and out about yourself and your life, but the moment you wake up that next morning, life moves on.  You are beautiful and so I am.  Together, we will make it through this crazy ride called life.

**David Update**

No news is good news!  I still haven't heard from him.  Continuous prayers for him and his Marines.  

I'm not sure if I have shared this one yet...but here you go!  Looking handsome Honey!

David, it's getting close.  I got your box the other day and washed all the clothes that you sent home.  Doing your laundry made it so much more real that you will be home soon.  I can't wait to have you back.  I need you back here. 

I'm here, with clean laundry, waiting for you to come home to me.  

I love you David.  

{ocean}

Oh the ocean.  It brings me so much calm and peace.  I walk on the beach, go for runs on the beach, clear my mind with my friend while shell searching on the beach.  I love listening to the waves crash and the faint sound of birds.  The wind is calming and the sun is calming.  The ocean is just a relaxing place.  Tonight, as many nights, I have the biggest urge to just go lay on the beach.  I want to listen to the ocean and look up at the stars.  I need someone to walk there with me and just lay.  David would be preferred, but I'll take a friend!

**David Update**

Still no word!  I got a box today from him, it was filled with trail mix and gear.  This is the official beginning to the end of the deployment!  Yay!  Keep him and his Marines in your prayers!

David, got infinitely more excited today about the end of the deployment.  I can't wait to talk to you soon!

I'm here, sitting on the big comfy couch, waiting for you to come home.

I love you David.  

{Internet}

These are the nights where I need David. I have jacked up my Internet SO bad that it won't even work! Ugh. I wish he was here to fix it for me. Yet, another reason I need him back in my life! Come back honey!!

**David Update**

I still haven't heard from him. He is out and about. Please keep him and his Marines in your prayers!!


David. I need you back and you know why. A month and a half baby. COME HOME!

I'm here, with my bag of M&Ms, waiting for you to come home to me.

I love you David.

{forgiveness}

In the Gospel reading today from the second chapter of Mark, the pharisees ask Jesus "Who can forgive sin besides God?"  The biblical answer is that Jesus is the Son of God, so of course he can forgive sins; but as the mass went on I began to think about forgiving sins.  We are told to "forgive those who trespass against us", so why don't we?  Why don't you and I forgive?  I hold on to grudges and tend not to forget what people have done to me.  And what does that accomplish, well, a whole lot of nothing!  It hardens my heart and that's the last thing that needs to happen!

I think it's time to start letting go.  Letting go of people who have hurt me, remind myself that I'm better without them.  Let go of memories I have of relationships gone bad, remind myself that the friendships that matter are the ones that are here now!  I'm moving on in life and need to let go of the past.  What do you need to let go?  Who do you need to let go of?  Who do you need to forgive for the wrong that has been done.  Pray for me and I'll pray for strength for you.

**David Update**

I have no update.  I haven't heard from him yet!  I hope and pray that all is well and everyone is safe!  

David, you can come home now.  Thanks.

I'm here, going on a date with Tina tonight, waiting for you to come home.

I love you David.  

{enough is enough}

I don't know why, but the past couple days I have been stuck in the depression stage of the deployment.  Enough is enough.  I need David to be back.  I know that 7 months isn't as long as some military members are gone and that we are lucky that the communication is what it is; but I'm done.  I'm ready to be reminded of what we have.  I'm ready to tell David all about my life.  I'm ready to have him here every night.  I'm ready for all of it.

I just recently found this picture of David and his boss from the beginning of the deployment.  Look how handsome he is.  I love him.

**David Update**

Okay, day three of not hearing from him.  He must be out and about in the hills of Afghanistan.  I pray for him and for his Marines, each and every single one of them.  

David, I can't wait to hear from you.  I miss you so much, as I assume you miss me too.  I just want, and need you, back in my life.  I know what I married into and this is a crazy life.  I just want you to know that I'm here for you and I love you with all my heart.  I can't wait to be reminded of what we have!  

I'm here, with my beautiful Valentine's flowers, waiting for you to come home to me. 

I love you David.  

{out and about}

Well, I haven't heard from David in a few days now.  He must be off the wire handling really important Marine Corps business.  I need him to be here to talk to me.  Things that I don't talk to anyone about, I want to talk to him about.  I want him back in my life.  The next 2-3 months couldn't go fast enough.

**David Update**

I have no update as of today.  

David, I wish you would be home sooner.  I wish that we could talk to each other.  I wish your box would make it home so that I get to be reminded of you.  I wish that I could have you back tonight. 

I'm here, waiting impatiently, for you to come home to me.

I love you David.  

{i want you back}

David,

I need you back in my life.  We have never been away like this from each other ever.  I'm struggling.  I love you and will always be in love with you.  I need to be reminded of that.  I need to feel what it means to be loved.  I know that you are the one and only for me.  I think about you all the time, but it's getting harder to feel loved.  I know that you love me and do your best to remind me, but I can't wait to have you back here.  I miss talking to you, I miss you coming home, I miss being held, I miss that feeling of love.  There are less than two months now until you come back home and they couldn't pass by sooner.  I love you and miss you with all of my heart.

I want all of this back.  I want this happiness back.

**David Update**

I haven't heard from David yet today.  The internet must have been down or he was off to the gym early!  I hope that his day is going well!  

David, I miss you.  

I'm here, with a clean bedroom, waiting for you to come home.

I love you David.  

{work it}

I know that I have told a lot of people that I go to the gym almost every weekday morning, and many of those people probably don't believe me.  So Tina, my neighbor and friend, took this shot of me working hard this morning!!

I'm just saying folks, that takes talent!

It's been 5 months of the deployment.  I'm ready to have David back.  I want to know what married life is like, I want to feel the reason that we fell in love, I want all of it back.  I miss him and this house is still filled with that void, the one of sadness and loneliness.  I know that it is only 2 more months and things are looking up, but can they hurry some more??

**David Update**

This is a photo of David and a high school buddy hanging out in Afghanistan!  Kind of cool!  I haven't heard from David yet today, but I assume he is still asleep and then will be on his way to the gym!


David, I can't wait to have you back completely in my life.  It's going to be wonderful!

I'm here, with a Reese's Heart, waiting for you to come home.

I love you David.

{lover's day}

I don't really know what to post about tonight.  Today is the feast of Saint Valentine, really the day that he died.  It is also a Hallmark holiday about love and being lovers.  It is also for just loving anything and anyone and being loved in return.

Take these words from St. Paul's letter to the Corinthians and apply it to any kind of love.  It kind of makes love synonymous with peace.  I know that today is supposed to be about love, but let's make everyday about Love.  I love to be loved.  I love that feeling that I get when people tell me that they love me and show me that they love me.  It doesn't even have to be those words, just a simple note to saying that they are thinking about me, a smile, an invite to be together, a smile kind gesture.  

I will work harder to love harder.  To let the people that I love, just how much I love them.  

**David Update**

All is well in the sandbox!  David is up and at 'em and on his way to the gym!  Surprise, surprise!  Today is 5 months that he has been deployed!  2 more months to go!

David, I can't wait to get back to normal.  I miss it, if we even know what normal means!

I'm here, with cold feet, waiting for you to come home. 

I love you David.  

{i'm beautiful}

So many days in my life I have been reaffirmed that I am a beautiful person.  Yet, some days I still think that I'm not good enough.  It's such a weird mentality to have; to what others think about you bring you down!

As long as I strive to be the best person that I can be, I'm beautiful.  Don't ever let people's words get to your heart (easier said than done, I know).  The people who truly know you and know your heart are the ones who think you're nothing but beautiful.  You and I are created wonderfully and not with waste.  We have to believe in ourselves and what he have in our hearts to only feel accepted by anyone else.  

I am beautiful.  

Beautifully made. 

 **David Update**

I don't have an update tonight, I didn't get to talk to David today except a Good Morning e-mail.

David, you make me feel beautiful, inside and out.  I love that feeling,  never have to worry when I'm with you. 

I'm here, waiting for Valentine's Day, waiting for you to come home to me.

I love you David.  

{it's okay}

Today is about being okay.  Okay with life.  Life never ceases to amaze me.  On any given day I can give you an example of the craziness that God gives me.

Some days I feel like I've had enough.  When it's going well, life comes in with a stiff punch in the face.  After a little anger, lots of complaining in my head, cleaning, and a few good conversations, all I can say at the end of the day that it's okay.  It always ends up okay.

**David Update**

I spoke to him briefly, he was up and on his way to the gym!

David, I wish you were here.  I miss the crap out of you.

I'm here, thinking about you always, waiting for you to come home.

I love you David.  

{enough said}

Come home.

**David Update**

I have not gotten the chance to talk to David today, but he e-mailed me, so he is still aboard Camp Leatherneck.  

David, I missed you tonight.

I'm here, waiting for you to come home to me.

I love you David.  

{missing my home}

Home is where my heart is and that's back in Ohio.

Today in the mail I received the most heart felt gift I've ever been given.  It is a precious bear and a hand-written storybook.  The story is about a girl who met a prince, got married and moved away to  be with him.  The bear saw how much the girl missed her husband and her life back home, so the bear went around and gathered pictures of all her loved places and friends.

I didn't even make it past the first few pages without breaking down in tears.  I can't even begin to tell you how much I miss those places, family and friends.  You all are my lifeline, no matter where I am, you'll always be there.  Praying for me, helping me, thinking of me, and reminding me of how wonderful you are.  I am the luckiest person in the world.  I have been so blessed with such wonderful people who care so much about me.  You'll never know how much this means to me.  I don't even know how to begin to express my undying gratitude for you.  I'm reminding that my journey with you isn't over either.  You are my life and my home.  I'll always know that if I'm down I can turn to my home and be lifted right back up.

Thank you for reminding me.  

**David Update**

I don't have an update yet, David is still asleep, it is 0043 his time (12:43 AM!).  

David, I can't wait to have you back, but know that I am planning trips back home already.  

I'm here, reminded of love, waiting for you to come home to me. 

I love you David.  

Thank you COTR for the needed reminder.  

xoxo

-Krissy

{human thoughts}

I would say that I have pretty high self esteem and feeling of self worth, but I'm human and sometimes I get down on myself about my life.  Why can't I get a job?  Why can't I run a long time?  Why aren't I as in shape (appearance wise) as I wish I could be?  Why can't I be the perfect student?  Why can't I get life right?

Really, I'm not depressed, but continual thoughts enter my head such as these.  I don't show it to anyone and I definitely don't talk about it.  I just feel like I'm failing at life and I'm trying to figure it out, but I can't.  I just can't get it all together.

I know that I am how I was supposed to be made and perfectly formed in His image.  I know that there is a plan for my life. I know all of this and firmly believe it, but my humanity gets the best of my mind.  I just have to continuously remind myself that I'm right where I'm supposed to be doing what I'm supposed to be.  I'm where I need to be with the people I needed to meet.  I have a great support system of faith, family and friends all over the nation.  My husband never lets me forget that I am beautiful.  I'm constantly reminded that I have grown up in less than ideal situation and my family is sometimes less than ideal, but it raised me to be one strong woman.  I know that I'm not the only person who thinks this way, there are plenty of you who feel down on yourselves and down about your life, I'm here to remind you and myself, that we are alright.  Things will be fine and life will move on.

**David Update**

The only update is that he skipped the gym this morning and got to sleep in a little bit.  I'm glad he got the extra sleep.  Less deprivation for his body and mind.  

David, I can't wait for you to come home.  I need that pick-me-up that you give me.  

I'm here, catching up on Dog the Bounty Hunter episodes, waiting for you to come home to me. 

I love you David.  

{phone call #4}

Today I got my fourth phone call from the sandbox!  It is always great to hear David's voice.  I always rag on him to call me more often.  It hasn't seemed to catch on yet, but it's okay, I still know that he loves me and thinks about me all the time.

Sometimes when we talk, okay, most of the time, I fill the conversation with useless and random things that have happened to me or things I need his advice on.  When we get off the phone, I always feel like kicking myself for not talking about "important" things, but nothing seems more important than hearing his voice.  He might, or he might no realize, how important those dumb conversations are to me.  I'm not here loving him less or being drowned in temptation, but it's nice to be reminded of why I'm here and what I'm doing.  I'm here to wait for those stupid phone conversations with my husband.  I love that man.

**David Update**

We spoke on the phone this morning, as you have read, he sounded great and in high spirits.  It was his birthday and it sounded like, for being in the sandbox, it was a memorable one.  He received cards and gifts in the mail and his Marines even got him a little gift.  He said it is still cold there, cold enough to layer clothes in the morning.  When I heard briefly from him this evening, he was up and on his way to the gym again! 

David, those phone calls just bring back the reality of you and I.  Right now, I know that we are married, but it's more like we are pen pals trying to flirt via the internet.  It doesn't always work for me.  Besides that, know that I'm here for you.  When you need me and when you come home.  

I'm here, with freshly baked Reese's double chocolate cookies, waiting for you to come home.

I love you David.  

{people}

Isn't it weird how people are placed in our lives?  People we need are given to us and people that we don't need are taken away.  I have been blessed to have lots of people thrown into my life when I least expect it.  I always need new people in my life, to learn new things from, to urge on new habits, share a bond with, grow great relationships with.

I treat friendships like gifts, sometimes they come to us and we want to exchange them, but if we hold on long enough, they end up being the thing we can't live without.  Or they are the gifts that we get that are the best things in the world, they can come on special days or random days (those are the best) and end up being just what we needed at that time.  Friendship can come easily, those are my favorites.  With the people that you meet and instantly it's like you've been friends for years, never skipped a beat.  Kind of like friends whom you haven't seen in ages and you pick up right where you left off!  They are awesome too!  I guess what I'm trying to say is that I LOVE friendships.  I've developed quite a few here in NC and hope to keep all of them for life.  

**David Update**

David is awake and at the gym already.  Yesterday, on his Ssgt's birthday, David got to re-enlist him.  David was really proud to have the honor to do that for Ssgt.  He said it was wonderful.  He is also still working out a lot, boxing things up to ship home and he said that the weather lately has been really cold!  

Two VERY handsome men, Ssgt and David.  

David, I want to extend an early Happy Birthday to you.  You have been alive for 25 years now and aren't you lucky, you get to spend the rest of them with me!  YAY!

I'm here, with very cold fingers, waiting for you to come home.  

I love you David.  

{just another day}

I know that I have complained about loneliness during the deployment already, but it still resonates through my mind at the end of a day.  I just got back from EMT class and there is so much that I want to share with him, so much about my day and the things that I have been learning.  I want to share everything with my better half.  I know that we have been married not even a year and I hope that these feelings of excitement and longing for David are still here in our old age.

**David Update**

I haven't gotten the opportunity to talk to David today, no update. 

David, I know it's only 2 more months to go, but I can't wait to have you home.  

I'm here, in this big house, waiting for you to come home to me. 

I love you David.  

{sb}

Well, football is football, I haven't paid attention this year, but any year that Bill B's team doesn't win is a good year.  BUT I'm most excited that I (and Tina) won a free Papa John's Pizza and a Coke!  YAY!!  Nothing could have made my night better than free pizza.  

David got his booty kicked by one of Sgts in MCMAP ground fighting!  He says that they were fighting and he doesn't know how it happened...hum, but who has the bloody lip!  

**David Update**

I only have a small update on David, that he woke up at 0330 his time to go watch the Super Bowl.  I'm glad that they still get those kind of accommodations in the sandbox.  

David, I bet you want me to save that free pizza to share with you when you get home, but we (Tina and I, the couple) are too excited we will eat them all up!!  I still love you, but maybe love pizza more at the moment! 

I'm here, grinning ear to ear about my free pizza, waiting for you to come home to me.

I love you David.  

{2012}

Is it too late to think about what I'm going to do this year??

I think not.  Here is goes.  Now, I'm not going to say that I wasted my life last year because I earned a Master's degree and got married.  But, this year, it's going to get better.

I have so much inside of me to share and I don't think I use myself to my potential.  I can share myself more, share my thoughts, share my journeys, share my  knowledge, and in return, learn from others too!  Everyone has greatness inside them and it's up to us to give our greatness and to use everyone else's greatness.

Eat healthy and workout.  I will group those together.  I wouldn't say that I eat like a slob, but I definitely don't resist temptation when it presents itself to me in the form of Doritos, ice cream, kool-aid, Snickers, and the list goes on.  I am going to make an effort to move more fresh and raw foods through my refrigerator.  Working out, I've been pretty good, but sometimes I get lazy.  I don't run to my potential, or run at all.  At the gym I'm not going to be lazy either, I'm going to lift heavier and more!

Learn new stuff.  I'm on a good start with that.  EMT classes and pistol shooting.  Continue both.

Love it all!  I'm a positive person by nature, but, sometimes, like everyone, I get angry with things and with people.  No more of that.  Frustration is okay and natural, but prolonged anger?  Negative.  Be happier and love more.

Drink good coffee, I can't wait.  OMGosh.

It's going to be a great year filled with great things.  Go ahead and join me, add to my list and make your own!  We can even do it together!

**David Update**

I don't really have one today.  I haven't been getting good updates, I guess that's because nothing crazy is going on, or crazy things are happening, but we're not allowed to know them!  David is up and on his way to the gym already!!


I'm bringing back some oldies but goodies back for my photos of David!  Enjoy!

David REALLY excited about life at TBS (The Basic School)!!

David, all I have to say to you is that you married a genius, tax refund = bags of money, lots of them.  You're welcome.  

I'm here, working on EMT homework, waiting for you to come home.

I love you David.  

{first official}

Today I signed up for a race!  It's my first official "sign-up" I've done!  The other races have just been fun runs that anyone can show up to.  I'm kind of excited about it, it is a 4 mile all-terrain run.  I haven't ran more than a mile in the past week, so I guess I better get to it if the race is next weekend!

I miss David a lot today.  I am exhausted and am in need of my husband.  I've been so tired all day and I think it's time to hit the sack early tonight.  

**David Update**

He was up early at 0500 and off to the gym.  He said that work is good and awards are going through.  he is excited to have officially been in the Marine Corps over 2 years now and also excited for his promotion in March.  

David, I could really use a back rub right now, they might be the things I miss the most.  I took my iron and a multi-vitamin today, I thought you'd be proud!

I'm here, so very tired, waiting for you to come home to me.

I love you David.  

{letting go}

Don't we all have a life that we planned for ourselves?  We know what job we want to have, we know where we want to live, we know how much money we want to make, we know who we want to marry, we know how many kids we're going to have, we just know it all.  Take my life as a testament to the complete opposite as that.  I don't have a job, I didn't plan on ever living on an island in NC, I make negative money, I didn't think I'd marry the accounting major golfer, who know how many kids we will have, I actually know nothing!  So, I'm letting go.  I'm obviously not meant to have a job (even though I'm still on the hunt), so I decided to sign up for an opportunity to fulfill my need to help people.  I have signed up to take classes to become an EMT!

Well, definitely not something I ever imagined myself doing, but here I am, a week into classes and beginning to love it.  I was apprehensive the beginning of the week and even this morning, but the 2 hours of hands on fun tonight, I think it hooked me.  I will let you into my mind, again, as I begin this new journey in my life.

**David Update*

David wrote me an e-mail when he woke up this morning.  He said that it had been raining most of the previous day and all that night, so he wasn't looking forward to the mess that Camp LNK would be.  He was drinking he pre-workout beverage and then on his was to the gym.  Always at the gym that boy.

MARRIAGE!!

David, an EMT?  Seriously?  Would you have ever thought?  It's just so crazy and I feel kind of out of my character, but I think I'll be good at it.  Deep down, I just want to help people.

I'm here, with my huge appetite, still eating, waiting for you to come home to me.

I love you David.

{brokenhearted}

Let's rewind my life 4 to 5 months ago.  You may have known me then, you might not have known me then, to say the least, I was brokenhearted.  I felt broken.  I had left my job, my family, my friends, my church, everything that I had know to follow a man.  Something I said I would never do unless I was married and it was right.  Well, he proposed, we got married, and I followed.  Some (maybe most) people thought I was crazy to follow my husband with a deployment in our midst, but those who really knew me, knew that I couldn't just let him go and not even try to begin my marriage.  Back to my point, I was left broken in an unknown world.

Well, HE never lets me down!  My wounds have been healed!  If David had been here the whole time I would have never got to meet the friends I did and have some of the opportunities that I have had.  Deployments definitely stink, but it has also brought joy to my life.  I have met some wonderful women during these past 5 months.  They have been my lifeline and I wouldn't trade these friendships for anything.  

Isn't it crazy how God works?  Just when we think life can't get worse, it may have actually gotten better.  it just takes time to realize what is going on.  I dislike the deployment, but I love what it has brought me.  

**David Update**

David is good!  He missed his alarm clock yesterday, but was up bright and early today to hit the gym.  He said that he has been busy still writing awards and doing paperwork.  He is looking forward to coming home and catching up on everything that he has missed.  Also, he will be 25 years old in 7 days!  Almost Happy Birthday!

That's one cute man!

David, I just want to tell you 3 things today, 1) I cut my own bangs, 2) I'm about to eat a frozen Snickers Bar and 3) why isn't there a dimmer switch on our TV, it's SO bright! 

I'm here, with a nice hot cup of tea, waiting for you to come home.

I love you David.