I think it's a good thing that I feel this way. It means I'm not sick of him yet! I know he's not far from me, but not being here is being too far away. I can't wait for tomorrow and the day after and the day after...
xoxo
Saturday, June 30, 2012
{taken for granted}
Ugh. That's how I feel about today. I'm in my deployment loneliness blues. David has been on duty, from 0800 this morning until 0800 tomorrow morning. It's crazy how much I miss him and it's barely been 12 hours! I always feel that I have so much to tell him, little ridiculous things, but important to me! I just want to him to walk by and grab my hand for just a second, eat dinner with me, snuggle me on the couch, and fall asleep with. I'm not sure if I take hi for granted when he's here, or just didn't realize how quickly all these lonely feelings can come rushing back.
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
{rollin' with the punches}
Ah....life at home with my husband. It is great not to be traveling or having visitors, just to be at home and begin to live our life as normal as possible.
Last week I went on a rural mission trip to Vinton Co., Ohio with my hometown parish. Everyday we would have lunchtime reflections. One afternoon's question was "What would you do if God completely changed your plans? Could you let go of what you have planned?" WOW! What a tough question to ask high school students, but maybe even harder to ask an adult. As I began to reflect on the question for myself, I realized that I have given it up. I go with the flow, I don't fight life anymore to make it fit my mold.
My life is not actually mine. It's a weird realization, that I as a military wife, had to come to. It's very hard to have concrete dreams and accomplishments when you are bound to move every couple years. My life, our lives (military wives), are not normally dictated by what we want to do or where we want to go. We are told where to live and when to move there. Our lives are driven by the military, or Marine Corps. in my case, and our spouses are living their dreams and goals. We are so in love with them, that we actually, in a sense, give up everything of our own to stand by the side of the bravest men we know. So what do I do? Just sit by idly? Waiting for something great to happen? Well, no, because it probably won't! I can be as proactive as I want, but if what I want isn't in my cards, then it won't happen. All of my happiness will be created by David and I and what we make of our lives.
I have to live happily. Try to find work and friends and be the best wife I can be. Good things will come. I just have to wait and bide my time until it's my turn. So, my friends, my advice to you is to roll with the punches. If it's meant to happen it will and if it's not, it won't.
Last week I went on a rural mission trip to Vinton Co., Ohio with my hometown parish. Everyday we would have lunchtime reflections. One afternoon's question was "What would you do if God completely changed your plans? Could you let go of what you have planned?" WOW! What a tough question to ask high school students, but maybe even harder to ask an adult. As I began to reflect on the question for myself, I realized that I have given it up. I go with the flow, I don't fight life anymore to make it fit my mold.
My life is not actually mine. It's a weird realization, that I as a military wife, had to come to. It's very hard to have concrete dreams and accomplishments when you are bound to move every couple years. My life, our lives (military wives), are not normally dictated by what we want to do or where we want to go. We are told where to live and when to move there. Our lives are driven by the military, or Marine Corps. in my case, and our spouses are living their dreams and goals. We are so in love with them, that we actually, in a sense, give up everything of our own to stand by the side of the bravest men we know. So what do I do? Just sit by idly? Waiting for something great to happen? Well, no, because it probably won't! I can be as proactive as I want, but if what I want isn't in my cards, then it won't happen. All of my happiness will be created by David and I and what we make of our lives.
I have to live happily. Try to find work and friends and be the best wife I can be. Good things will come. I just have to wait and bide my time until it's my turn. So, my friends, my advice to you is to roll with the punches. If it's meant to happen it will and if it's not, it won't.
This is a photo from our 'Homecoming' shoot! SO glad to have him back and be in his arms.
~Do Good and Live Happy~
Friday, June 1, 2012
{i'm baaaack}
Well folks, it's been too long. While David was on deployment (and I on my own of sorts) this blog became a way to relieve my feelings and a way for David to know what was going on in my life. It was part of routine and I feel like you all became part of my life. So, let's talk about my life.
David is home! It is good to have him back, but I can't wait til we are done traveling. We have had visitors and/or have been traveling since 4 days after he got back from Afghanistan! It's too much! I was warned by other wives that I would want 'David and Kristin' time. I knew that that was true, but thought I'd be able to handle all the guests and traveling. Now, don't get me wrong, all of it was fun, we just never got to have a readjustment period, and really, when you break it all down, it's about us. I'm sorry for those who are offended, but next time it will be different. We need how to live with each other again, learn more quirks and needs that we've developed, how to be around each other again. We won't have this time for 2 months after David returned! That's insane!
This weekend is our one-year wedding anniversary, but it's really like our 4 month actually-being-together anniversary! (I love the Corps!) We're finally getting back to some kind of normal routine!
David is home! It is good to have him back, but I can't wait til we are done traveling. We have had visitors and/or have been traveling since 4 days after he got back from Afghanistan! It's too much! I was warned by other wives that I would want 'David and Kristin' time. I knew that that was true, but thought I'd be able to handle all the guests and traveling. Now, don't get me wrong, all of it was fun, we just never got to have a readjustment period, and really, when you break it all down, it's about us. I'm sorry for those who are offended, but next time it will be different. We need how to live with each other again, learn more quirks and needs that we've developed, how to be around each other again. We won't have this time for 2 months after David returned! That's insane!
This weekend is our one-year wedding anniversary, but it's really like our 4 month actually-being-together anniversary! (I love the Corps!) We're finally getting back to some kind of normal routine!
Taken at the Wedding of Mr. & Mr.s Goff in Ohio! We LOVE dancing!!
xoxo.
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