{spouse mentality}

Being a military, USMC, wife has it's ups and downs.  We never know where we will be in a few years, we can't count on our husbands to come home from work by 6 to have dinner, we never know when they may deploy.  We get free healthcare, we get tickets to concerts and comedy shows for free, we have tax free shopping as an option, and our husbands have job security.  Now, let's switch to mentality of a wife whose husband is deployed.  We are without him for months on end, we loose sleep, we loose weight, we gain weight, we are stressed, everything breaks, we wait for and dread phone calls from numbers we don't know, we panic when a car we don't know pulls in the driveway or our doorbell rings, we break out in tears at the oddest moments, we've never felt so lonely, and every time we hear of a fatality in country of a US Marine, we silently freak out.

This morning after breaking news about the downed helicopter in Helmand Provence, Afghanistan, a fellow Marine Corps wife was in panic that it might have been her husband.  Thankfully, it was not him.  Can we be thankful that someone has lost their life?  Thankful that it was not our husband, but rather that it was someone else husband, father, son?  How can we not feel slightly awful and guilty for wishing it wasn't us?  That it happened to another family.  Such mixed emotions come out of situations like that, and, if we focus on the news all the time, this can happened a lot.  Panic, to sadness, to relief, to guilt.  What an emotional roller coaster.

**David Update**

Still no word from David.  Continued prayers are welcome.  Think smart and be safe.

David, I can't wait until you're back at LNK and we get to talk!  I miss hearing from you and getting random e-mails throughout the day.  Come back safely.  

I'm here, with a Dog the Bounty Hunter marathon, waiting for you to come home.

I love you David.