{letting go}

Don't we all have a life that we planned for ourselves?  We know what job we want to have, we know where we want to live, we know how much money we want to make, we know who we want to marry, we know how many kids we're going to have, we just know it all.  Take my life as a testament to the complete opposite as that.  I don't have a job, I didn't plan on ever living on an island in NC, I make negative money, I didn't think I'd marry the accounting major golfer, who know how many kids we will have, I actually know nothing!  So, I'm letting go.  I'm obviously not meant to have a job (even though I'm still on the hunt), so I decided to sign up for an opportunity to fulfill my need to help people.  I have signed up to take classes to become an EMT!

Well, definitely not something I ever imagined myself doing, but here I am, a week into classes and beginning to love it.  I was apprehensive the beginning of the week and even this morning, but the 2 hours of hands on fun tonight, I think it hooked me.  I will let you into my mind, again, as I begin this new journey in my life.

**David Update*

David wrote me an e-mail when he woke up this morning.  He said that it had been raining most of the previous day and all that night, so he wasn't looking forward to the mess that Camp LNK would be.  He was drinking he pre-workout beverage and then on his was to the gym.  Always at the gym that boy.

MARRIAGE!!

David, an EMT?  Seriously?  Would you have ever thought?  It's just so crazy and I feel kind of out of my character, but I think I'll be good at it.  Deep down, I just want to help people.

I'm here, with my huge appetite, still eating, waiting for you to come home to me.

I love you David.